Been a few [or more] very long weeks….promise to catch up with the blogmily soon….derek? Where are you?!

time to change churches

ok…i’m sure i’ll get slammed for this one…i am changing churches. i have decided that mine is not a good fit and maybe that’s what is holding me up on my journey to know Jesus and God. why do i think my current church is not a good fit? for a few reasons…one is that i have been constantly told things will be different and that we will all make contributions and our ideas and opinions are important. i go to all the meetings, make suggestions (which etiquette says should at least be acknowledged) and generally “play by the rules” only to find that i am one of the few doing that. i am way too frustrated for my own good and two weeks ago i was so mad at church on sunday that i didn’t even hear the service…nice, right? so…i have started to look elsewhere…i think finding the right place where i have something in common with the community and that i feel at home will set the table for my continued journey to faith. am i taking the easy way out or is this something that some of you have also gone through before you found your place? i really want to know Jesus and God and i want to let go inside of that  but i don’t seem to be able to turn that corner and quite honestly, things like this really piss me off and leave me with a bad taste for organized religion.

it’s official…i’m a twitter-holic

me: hi, my name is lisa and i’m a twitter-holic

group: hi lisa

me: i have not been clean at all and i don’t wanna…

 

i have said many times before now…i do NOT need another vice, particularly one that plants my butt in front of my computer for several hours. BUT my pusher, deek, has opened my eyes to twitter and try as i have, i can’ t avoid the lure of it…so last night, i caved…i only have a few followers and am only following a few right now but there’s something that pulls me to this world of micro blogging and instant messaging. just like my blog, i find it amazing that i can communicate (and sometimes very intimately) with people all over the u.s. in an instant…technology, i love it…i hate it… i have seen some of our “blog-mily” on twitter now as well….hi, sideon, deek and the other one…

i just hope my girlfriend is ok “sharing” me…is too much technology a bad thing? i can rationalize that i’ll be using it for business…i actually do have a business blog and will shortly be setting up a twitter business site (go figure) as well as a facebook site. BUT i wonder if so much internet communication has taken us away from the “face to face” that i still think is vital in business AND in our personal lives. i’m a real touchy feely kind of gal and i’m sure that i would never replace that with all of the networking/ social sites but i wonder if we’re creating a nation of people that don’t get the proper amount of actual in person interaction or if we’re actually connecting more with our fellow u.s. citizens because of all the advances made in the last several years, months, days (haha).

what do you think?

be honest now…

ok…so i’m trying this new thing where i don’t complain about anything or judge…i know, might as well be asking me to talk without using my hands…i’m latin, you figure it out…anyway…

so i’m driving to work and someone is driving like the biggest jackass (let me interject in my own post for a moment…i GET to say judgmental things and complain on this post as an illustration…) so, naturally, i’m opening my mouth to say outloud that the driver is a jackass (never mind that i’m in the car by myself) and i catch myself and stop. not so bad i think…i can do this all day long…well, let me tell you…i DID have to do it all day long because apparently i am a serial complainer and judger (is that a word?). what did we learn at work today kids? that lisa IS also a jackass…haha…at least i can admit it and laugh about it…

lisa: hi everyone…my name is lisa and i am a jackass…

everyone: hi lisa

lisa & everyone: laughing sounds

will i stop this experiment…no…i want to see how many days i can stay “clean”…maybe i should make that hours?

welcome to wutupdogg radio!

among the other ten million things i say i want to do, i always think i could have my own radio station that plays really great old music, new music, eclectic oddball stuff and pretty much whatever amuses me…music is something that always has and always will be a huge part of my life so i thought i’d start this list and just add songs to it every now and again…here’s what i have so far (in no particular order):

• crosstown traffic-jimi hendrix
• jason and the argonauts-xtc
• 40-u2
• jungleland-bruce springsteen
• the blower’s daughter-damien rice
• up the ladder to the roof-supremes
• aisha-another bad creation
• artist in the ambulance- thrice
• smile for the camera-armor for sleep
• the deep end-scary kids scaring kids
• tears of a clown- smokey robinson
• anything by echo and the bunnymen
• wonderland-big country
• precious-chrissy hynde and the pretenders
• summertime-sublime
• clincher-chevelle
• pride-u2

feel free to add your own, tell me how much you hate my choices, tell me how much you love my choices or suggest i find something else to do in my spare time.

to be continued….

the convenient Christian and other observations…

warning: this post contains bitter rantings…please proceed with caution as you are entering at your own risk…

i have dubbed myself the convenient Christian…you could also call me the lazy Christian, the part time Christian or even the Christian who only attends church on the Sundays she is playing in the band. i personally find this pretty crappy of myself and would love to resolve this….it goes right along with my diet actions as well…convenient, lazy, part time…those (Christianity & diet) are the two areas of my life that are heavy on my mind right now AND isn’t it funny that i can lump them both in the same category? what does that say about my faith that i give it the same importance as my weight…one word: wow…what am i doing? about weight: i started running again…nothing mind shattering but it’s a start. Christianity: i have no clue…read a book “Blue Like Jazz”, by Donald Miller…i blame you Donald for opening up this can of worms about my faith…anyway, really just wanted to say it out loud so that  can’t hide from it anymore…thanks for listening, er, reading….another observation i see when rereading my post is that it sounds like i just want to scratch things off my to do list….like my faith should be just an item on my to do list like pick up the dry cleaning, go to the grocery store and mow the lawn…i warned you….hahahaha

what was i thinking?

oh poor little unknowing girl…sitting in my office innocently waiting for office 2007 to complete it’s down load onto my laptop…a little giddy, a little anxious…watching the progress bar creep closer to resolution. aha! it’s done…wait, i have to reboot…finally, i can check this out…WTF! office 2007 is a horrible monster that must be tamed…

seriously, have any of you exprienced the dreaded office 2003 to 2007 shock syndrome? it is not pretty. i feel a little like when someone is trying to console you after a break up and they tell you that time will heal all wounds and you want to tell them what they can do with their time AND their wounds…same thing here. everyone says “oh, you’ll hate it for two weeks and then you’ll wonder what you ever did without it!” apparently i am in the first stage of my emotional adventure with office 2007 because i want to scream right now. i can’t find what to do where. and the whole two weeks thing…i’m pretty sure i need to accomplish a couple of things on my computer in the next two weeks. can’t we just jump to the part where i love it?

me: i’m lisa and i’m a computer idiot

group: hi lisa!

…next!

just because it tickled me…

i wanna…

these days i often find that i say to myself outloud (much to the dismay of those people around me at target or publix) that i wanna do this or i wanna do that. now i know i am not alone here because we have all said many times to ourselves, our friends, families, loved ones, sometimes anyone who’ll listen (the poor guy on the elevator with you, the nice woman minding her own business picking out ripe tomatoes at the grocery store, etc) that we wanna be/ do/ feel anywhere or way but the way we are right now. it’s definitely fantasy…so i started trying to remember all the things i say to myself that i wanna do,be, live and i thought it would make for a funny (maybe sad too, but still funny) list. so here it goes…

I wanna be…

1. a writer
2. a retired person (one of my personal favorites)
3. a kept woman (also one of my personal favorites)
4. an artist
5. a musician
6. a furniture maker
7. a singer
8. an actor
9. a voice over person or whatever you call it
10. a newspaper columnist
11. a philanthropist (i always get stopped by the whole i don’t have the money for it part)
12. a teacher
13. a politician
14. a motivational speaker (HA!)
15. a radio talk show host
16. hell, any kind of a talk show host
17. did i say a kept woman yet?
18. a house flipper (hello, have i seen the economy lately?)
19. rachel maddow
20. anybody except me
21. no one else but me

and as if nothing had ever happened

…she appears as silently as she left us….

how’s that for drama? ok, so i have been missing in action for a while. the world has a way of winning and keeping me from my obsessions and little vices. or maybe this was God’s way of saying “ixnay on the ogblay for a bit!” nonetheless, i am back yet again and ready to spread my prose in the blog world again OR at least to anyone that stops by and stays for a minute or two…

thanks to those of you that have urged me back on (sideon, gbu2) and those who pretty much kicked me in the butt (deek). i have missed you all as well!